Job hunting demons

I started job hunting long before I finished my Master Degree. Someone advised me I should do that, yet it didn’t do me any good favours. I had just finished all my classes, facing only a dissertation until it was all finished, when me all optimistic and bright about the future, decided I can conquer the world. Well, maybe not exactly conquer, but I thought there are all these possibilities and opportunities for young people out there. I was met with a harsh slap by reality, telling me I won’t find a job right away. 

I kept getting rejections every day. I kept applying for anything I saw I wanted to do. Then I realized I need to graduate and I will get more replies. I decided to pursue my career back home, help my family, spend time with friends and maybe help my motherland somehow ( I had been living abroad for 6 years). I found a freelance job, started helping my mom. Yet, no job opportunities. More and more rejections. I slowly started applying to any job, that would fit something in my CV. Still no success. It has been a year since I have been going to interviews with no positive response. And I keep seeing more and more talented young people struggling with the same issue. People keep telling me I should somehow use connections, ask everyone… and ok that does make sense in today’s society somehow… But does it have to be that way really? Why companies keep rejecting all those multi-cultural kids with so much potential and desire to learn, develop and create? I stopped dreaming and started applying to random jobs, just because I need to find one. And I know it shouldn’t be like that, but parents people around you, they all start asking questions in time. The worst is: Why can’t you find a job? If only I knew the answer. I have my freelance job. but I can’t do that all my life. I want to learn more, I want to use all that I studied in real life. I want to struggle with stress situation at my work place and grow within the environment. I want to have a career and a profession. 

I sometimes feel as if most young graduates would be stuck at a dead end of a not desired career, in a not desired company for an unknown time.. Yet, I don’t cease to yearn to develop more. I learn from these experiences. I learn from my mistakes during interviews. I learn from all those sleepless nights, trying to figure out what to do next, how to do it and will it work. And that gives me strength to keep wanting to dream, to start dreaming again and building a bright future for myself. And to all fellow job seekers out there – It will work someday! Have the patience!